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Mar 31, 2011

I GUESS THIS IS IT... THIS IS REALLY IS IT

I have been staring at my monitor for quite some time now.


Looking at editing my profile, whether or not to change my status.


Single.


It’s been more than 10 months. I have been single for 28 years, pero when you go back to status quo, hindi nawawala yung bigat na nararamdaman. Masakit.


I’ve always told myself that I’ll be ready whenever Kasintahan decides to let me go. Na tatanggapin ko ng maluwat kapag dumating yung araw na ayaw na niya sa akin. Alam kong darating yung araw na yan.


Maraming dahilan kung paanong hindi kami bagay. The age gap. Yung talino niya. Mga hilig namin. Pero hindi pa rin ako naging handa. Ang bigat sa loob. Ganito pala kasakit pag iniwan ka. It came out of the blue. Yes, we do have our arguments, but I did not expect for it to build up to this. I did not expect that this will end with goodbye.


I feel like shit. I feel like crying. Tang ina, nasa office ako, ang pula ng mata ko. Gusto ko sumigaw. Wala akong ganang magtrabaho. I just want to know why.


Shit, we’re supposed to go to Bohol.


I can’t say ‘kasintahan’ anymore.


Wala nang mangungulit sa akin bago ako matulog.


I just wrote about our theme songs.


Hindi man lang kami umabot ng anniversary.


Di ko alam kung makakahanap pa ako ng isang katulad niya na magmamahal at tatanggap sa akin.


Ayokong maging emo, pero shit. SHIT!!!




I don’t know if you can still read this. If you will read this. This may not mean much to you, but do know that I love you. I always will. You have a new chapter in your life. One without me. But I pray it will still be happy.




I’m staring at my facebook page.


I can’t make that change…


:(


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Dahil patapos na ang araw, I will come clean. Ito ang aking April Fool's Day post ko.


Mayroon pa rin akong Kasintahan.


Sa lahat ng nagmensahe sa akin, maraming salamat sa pag-aalala. Pasensya na sa kalokohan ko. Apat na taon ko nang nais makapagsulat ng April Fools Day na post at ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon.


Salamat sa concern.

28 comments:

Lakwatsero Ako said...

ahhhh... pakshet talaga yang pag ibig na yan oh... tsaka FB status update

KikomaxXx said...

condolence chong... kaya mo yan... :(

Anonymous said...

hindi ko alam ang sasabihin...:(
siguro nga i am locked with ur good stories about your relationship that i am not expecting to read this kind of post.

-maldito

Spiral Prince said...

gillboard...:(

khantotantra said...

so sad. aw.

rah said...

It's ok. It's not that bad. Kung ang problema lalaki, ang solusyon - lalaki rin. Go ahead, move on.. It's ok.

CheeNee KOKAk said...

malay mo naman may pagasa pa..kaya yan..

mr. rf said...

it'll get better with time...

aajao said...

ume-april fools day ka huh? hehe. march 31 yung blog post mo. pero sana nga april fools entry lang yan. para lahat, masaya pa rin!

xall percé said...

speechless... Ang sad lang. But you can make it. Sana nga April Fool's Day post to. Pero parang hindi eh, I can feel sadness in your post

Anonymous said...

sorry....
i hope you understand....

Chyng said...

i was waiting for the catch na pang april's fool day tong entry mo.

totoo nga?

kaloy said...

noting i will say will comfort you at this time... just feel the pain until it hurts like hell... feel it like its the only emotion left of you... drown yourself in misery - you earned it... but i firmly trust that after all the wallowing - you will let go...

PS: what a contrast - its April Fool's pa naman...

Chingoy said...

:(

Kyle said...

hala bakit ganon? di ba kapopost mo lang ng theme songs nyo? anong nangyari? :(

Kamila said...

:( waaaah nagulat naman ako, yun din naisip ko, kakasulat mo lang ng mga theme song niyo.. sorry for your lost... :(

kikilabotz said...

akala ko part ng aprils fools.. malay mo magkabalikan kay o kaya may mas better n duating. cheer up sir ^_^

-ssf- said...

kala ko april fools day post, shocks, so sad!!! :( tsk, tsk, tsk. di ko rin alam ang sasabihin...

Nicos said...

hugs... :'(

Boris said...

nahuli mo ako. anyway nagulat ako sa mga comments. di naman nila binasa hanggan huli HAHAHAHA =))

Raft3r said...

ay sus!

xall percé said...

Waah!!! You added that last part!!!! Mean! Mean! Sabi na nga ba eh. If serious post kasi to, I think you won't let anyone leave a comment.

Jinjiruks said...

buti nalang inunan kong basahin ang huli

Anonymous said...

packshet naman.dalang dala na ako. hahahahaha...joke lng pla yun... pero sobrang nafeel ko yung lungkot nung letter...khit joke sya. i felt na may pinaghugutan.:)

Jayvie said...

hahahahahahahaha! isang halakhak lang para sa amin ni moret na tunay na nag-alala sa iyong kalagayan. hihihi

kinalkal pa namin ang inyong mga facebook wall para macheck kung totoo ba ito! lerki ka hahaha

bam2x said...

hahaa tae.. akala ko kung ano na.. more post pls.. bagong taga subaybay mo :)

beero said...

hahaha. naloko mo ko dito ah. paniwalnang-paniwala ako. bumenta sa kin yung drama. hehe

RICO DE BUCO said...

MADAMI PA JAN TOL..KAYA MO YAN.MAY DARATING PANG BETTER SMILE