When you can't sleep at 3 o'clock in the morning, there are certain things that comes to mind.Things that you don't necessarily think of when you're busy working or doing whatever.
So at 3 o'clock I was thinking of the word trust.
It has been proven time and again specially nowadays that it's hard to trust people. Specially these days when meeting a new person is just one click away. You don't really get to screen them anymore if they are trustworthy or would stab you in the back the minute you turn your back around.
I've been burned a lot of times. The feeling sucks when that happens.
One befriended me so she can borrow money. Once she got that, she just disappeared.
One became a friend. But then did something wrong with my partner.
One was initially sweet but when I failed to reciprocate the sweetness, tried to turn people against me.
And then there's one who's just plain nasty even when I'm around.
I've moved on from these things. They are petty, and dwelling over them is just childish.
But it's 3 o'clock in the morning.
And I can't get my eyes to close.
Specially now, since I sent my mother a message meant to be sent to 'Kasintahan.'