You know how relationships are complicated? How sometimes you want to give up on it because your gf/bf is driving you nuts? How crazy your partner sometimes is because she/he isn't telling you what the problem is? Or because you don't know where you stand in the relationship?
Yeah, I'm going through all that. And I'm single. WTF, right?!
They say people normally don't follow the advise that they give to other people. I think the past few weeks (or months) I'm guilty of it.
If you've been following my blog since I don't know last year. You know there are days when I wrote about single blessedness, about why there's nothing wrong with being single, all that bullshit. I admit, there were days that I felt it was all full of shit. Crap. I didn't follow my own advise.
I guess, Domjullian was right calling me ampalaya, because I was bitter. Could be because of my current predicament. I complicate stuff when they shouldn't be.
I'm going to try changing that. I don't know where or how to start, but I will.
Interestingly, last Tuesday, prior to going to work I passed by Glorietta and passed by quite a number of couples strolling around. Normally, such a sight would make me go bitter or depressed, depending on the shape of the moon, but Tuesday was different. I actually smiled at the sight of sweet couples holding hands while window shopping, couples sharing McDonald's sundae. The cheesy stuff.
I don't know why, but my thoughts when I saw them were nice.
So a couple of the comments I got from my last post, and a few posts ago was an invite from my blog friend jayvie to go out on a date with his cousin.
I know I've been ranting about being dateless these days. Naawa siguro siya sakin, that's why he thought of hooking me up with his cousin. I'm not really sure how to answer the invite. I mean it would be great. Actually it would be awesome to go out again. I'd really like that. The thing is, I don't know them personally, and I wouldn't jump into things first without testing the waters. I mean, they only know me through what they read. And what I write isn't entirely who I am. So I don't want to disappoint any of them if I don't pass their standards or anything.
Anyway, the answer is yes, I'd accept the invite. But I would like to get to know jayvie and your cousin more first before we push through with the date.
I'm easy. But not that easy. Hahaha. I'm just kidding. I am easy.
Let me share the chorus of the song I'm currently in to. Could be the reason why I'm feeling better these days. The song's been sitting on my mp3 player for months now, but it was only this week that I noticed the lyrics. If you listen to the whole song, it's a bit cliche, but for some reason, this song spoke to me.
I'm the man who holds my ground
I'm the man who sticks around
I'm the man to hold you tight
Cuz I'm the man in love...
And I'm the man to make it right
I'm the man to kiss goodnight
I'm the man who won't let you down
Cuz I'm the man in love...
-Elliott Yamin, "I'm The Man"
Someday... I'll be able to say these lines to someone.