Mga Sumasampalataya

Mar 10, 2012

CRISIS

The last couple of days have been especially hard for me.

I have been going through some emotional lows, and it hit me this morning that I am in a state of depression.

The worst thing is, it's because of one thing that I really loved... my work.

I have talked to my boss about this, and trying to explain why this is was difficult.

One after another, I've been giving reasons why I'm not motivated to work anymore.

I came in late the last four days of this week.

The last time I did this, I left my job.

And that's why this is hard.

I love my job.

I excel at it.

People, not only from this office, but from other parts of the world have seen how I work.

I'm on first name basis terms with Managers, Heads, Leads, Directors and Stakeholders of the Business Unit I am on.

I have spearheaded a project that a Global Head wanted to implement globally.

I have achieved all those things.

Yet, I still feel this.

Maybe I need to know what I'm worth now.

A man can stay on his job because everything he loves is in it.

But it's not enough anymore.

Now I'm torn.

13 comments:

Justin said...

I felt that way too before. Baka na-burn-out ka lang. try to go on a vacation or break before making any decision. or try to find a good reason to get up in the morning and go to work. good luck. :)

ZaiZai said...

maybe you just need a breather, like a vacation or time away from work. I'm sure you'll figure it out and all will be well again! hugs! :)

eprilis said...

Try to give yourself a break. Maybe what you need is some time for yourself, to think and figure things out. To have some rest and peace of mind. Sometimes, no matter how we love something, there comes a time when we feel like letting go. But if you love your work so much, hold onto it, dude.
I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

Rah said...

Mag leave ka muna bro. Burn out ka na siguro. Isipin mo din na maswerte ka dahil may trabaho ka na gusto mo talaga. good luck.

T.R.Aurelius said...

you maybe looking for something in you that seems to be a endless void....,
take a rest, be in silence...., empty your mind for a while, and of course, it's not always bad to pray for God's help :)

khantotantra said...

it sucks to feel that depression and lack of motivation and will.

maybe you need to take a break... not just a day or two, probably a 1 week vacation.

chingoy, the great chef wannabe said...

relax ka lang brod

McRICH said...

we're at the same situation, we resigned already :) life is too short! yun lang, wala kmeng trabaho pag uwi dyan hehe!

Garpppy Garp said...

Take a break. VL or something.

Gaspard said...

mag-vacation ka muna! summer na din naman eh :)

Dorm Boy said...

Hmmm I guess you are a little bit burn-out sa work and at the same time thinking what's life outside your office or in another company. (di ko alam if tama ako).

Cguro pre it's time to take ur VL and SL have a break muna. =) Para makapag isip-isip muna.

Little Miss Pataki said...

I agree with everyone, take a break. Mag beach ka. Magpunta ng Singapore. Ng Europe. Afford mo naman eh. Lilipas din yan. :)

Raft3r said...

the last time na nagkaganyan ako sa work
i resigned
hwag mo akong gayahin
mahirap ang buhay ngayon
hehe

bakasyon ka muna
that always helps
magastos nga lang