The last couple of days have been especially hard for me.
I have been going through some emotional lows, and it hit me this morning that I am in a state of depression.
The worst thing is, it's because of one thing that I really loved... my work.
I have talked to my boss about this, and trying to explain why this is was difficult.
One after another, I've been giving reasons why I'm not motivated to work anymore.
I came in late the last four days of this week.
The last time I did this, I left my job.
And that's why this is hard.
I love my job.
I excel at it.
People, not only from this office, but from other parts of the world have seen how I work.
I'm on first name basis terms with Managers, Heads, Leads, Directors and Stakeholders of the Business Unit I am on.
I have spearheaded a project that a Global Head wanted to implement globally.
I have achieved all those things.
Yet, I still feel this.
Maybe I need to know what I'm worth now.
A man can stay on his job because everything he loves is in it.
But it's not enough anymore.
Now I'm torn.