KAUNTING UPDATE

Natutuwa ako sa mainit na pagsalubong ninyo sa pagbabalik ko. Akala ko nung nagpaalam ako eh mawawala yung iilang mambabasa ko, pero marami sa inyo ang nag-iwan pa rin ng mga mensahe ng pagkalugod sa desisyon kong bumalik (kahit dalawang linggo lang naman talaga ako nawala). Pasensya na kung di na ako masyado makapagbloghop dahil medyo busy sa trabaho. Pero sinusubukan ko namang basahin yung mga sinusulat niyo kahit hindi ako nakakapag-iwan ng wala kong kuwentang mga kumento.

Hindi talaga ako nahuhuli sa mga bali-balita at goings on sa mundo ng blogosperyo. Natatawa nga ako at meron akong nababasang mga kaguluhan. Hindi na ako makikisawsaw bilang respeto na rin sa mga taong involved. Tsaka hindi ko rin naman kasi kilala yung mga taong may mga hindi pagkakasundo.

Tapos napapansin ko rin na maraming nagsisimulang umibig ngayon sa blogosperyo. Merong mga sawi (hindi naman ata mawawala yun), pero mayroon ding mga sinuswerte. Nagsisimula na nga akong mainggit eh... biro lang.

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Marahil alam ninyo ang dahilan ng desisyon kong gumawa ng iba pang tahanan. Meron akong mga personal na mga kaganapan na gustuhin ko mang ishare, eh marami nang nakakakilala sa akin dito na kilala ko sa tunay na buhay. Mga pamilya at kaibigan. Medyo sensitibo yung ilang bagay na iyon kaya di ko kaya isulat dito. Kaya gumawa akon ng panibagong mundo.

Pero syempre dahil marami na rin dito akong kilala, at nasubaybayan yung buhay ko, so magseshare na lang ako ng ilang mga bagay bagay na nangyayari sakin ngayon. La lang, baka interesado lang kayo malaman.

• Bukas, officially Taong Grasa na ako. Nakilala ko na yung mga bago kong makakatrabaho, yung kras ko dun sa ibang department dati, kasama ko na ngayon. Ang bango bango kasi niya!!!
  
• Sa kasamaang palad, teammate ko yung isang kablog ko. Joke lang LJ!!!
• Wala na kaming maingay at malanding renter!!! Natutuwa ako't tatahimik na ang mundo namin.
• Mukhang alam ko na ang bibilhin ko sa pagdating ng 13th month pay ko... PS3 Slim!!! yay!!! Nerd!!!
• Iniisip ko kung idedelete ko na yung Friendster ko o kung magbabawas ako ng mga friends dun...
  
• Medyo pinapaalala ng katawan ko na may UTI ako. Kinakatakot ko nga baka lumala yung sakit kong yun, kasi nahihirapan nanaman akong umihi.
• Medyo nananaba nanaman ako. Paano ba naman, pagkatapos kong sabihan ang mga magulang ko na magpapapayat nako saka naman sila sinipag na magluto ng mga masasarap na putahe.
• Napanuod ko last week yung District 9. Ang ganda!!!!
• Ewan ko ba, pero naaadik ako sa mga kanta ni Taylor Swift ngayon. Sinisisi ko ang Myx at tuwing napapadaan ako sa channel na yun, iyon ang pinapatugtog... yung may cheerleader...
• Nagpapakaloser pa rin ako dahil paminsan ang ginagawa ko lang eh maglaro ng XBox. Kahit wala akong bagong game.

Wala pala ako masyadong ikukwento. Sa susunod, medyo matinong post naman isusulat ko.

MY TOP FILMS: SUMMER 2009

I bet you did not expect to read an update so soon after I wrote my goodbye post. Me too. It's just that I missed writing here (and nobody reads my other blog). So I'm back. I probably won't be posting as often as before, maybe once a week. I'm still enjoying writing there, it's just that I have to have venue for these kind of posts and for my fiction.

The 2009 Summer Movie season is about to end in a few weeks, and the year's biggest films have already been released. So now, my dear kablogs, I give you my Top Films for the Summer Season 2009. And before I forget, no I did not see Terminator Salvation.

10.ICE AGE 3: DAWN OF THE DINOSAURS

Ice Age has always been hit and miss. The first one was a miss, while the second one improved a lot. I had high hopes with this movie when i first saw it's trailer. I've always liked dinosaur films (except for Land of the Lost), and expected for this film to be at least good. But just like above, this too was boring. You'd know immediately that it's not quite good when the cinema is packed with children but still it was too quiet. It's either those kids have been brought up extremely properly by their parents or the movie just sucks.

9.GI JOE: RISE OF COBRA

I'd be honest I geeked out the first time I saw the picture of Snake Eyes last year. And when it was announced that the Director of The Mummy was attached to the film, I was ecstatic. And then I saw the trailer. I forgot, the director of The Mummy, also made Van Helsing (a film that I really didn't like). I knew the film will be funny with a Wayans in the cast but I did not have high expectations with this one. The trailer was boring. Reading the reviews, I hoped that the action will be good, but then the whole 2 and something hours that I was in the cinema, I felt nothing. This was not the GI Joe I remember when I was a kid. It was all flash and fancy, but with no depth.

8.X-MEN ORIGINS: WOLVERINE

I saw the leaked version and thought it was okay. Of course it was unedited so I didn't expect to be blown away. But when I did see the real film, I realized that Wolverine lacked the style and panache that made X2 an awesome movie. Save for Deadpool and Gambit, this wasn't really a very good movie. It did rank higher though because obviously I'm a nerd, and my fanboy self was screaming everytime I can identify a mutant that made a cameo in the film.

7.DRAG ME TO HELL

This is where the good films (at least for my taste) begins. I loved Drag Me To Hell. It wasn't as scary I thought it would be. It was actually funny at times. And knowing that this is a Sam Raimi film, I loved the shoutouts to his previous movies. The effects were old school but it was cool. It works actually. It's not a film that bragged about state of the arts effects but of old-school horror-making. The movie is absolutely disgusting but it was fun. And I liked it.

6.TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

Yeah, alot of people say that the latter half of the movie was dragging. There were too many robots that you'd have a hard time identifying them and that the film isn't as good on your second viewing as your first. That maybe true. But I don't care about other people's opinions. I liked the film. I thought it was funny. I thought that it's dumb. And I thought that it's one cool sequel.

5.HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE

My nephew and niece thought it was boring. Alot of people thought that this was the worst of the series. Some slept through the entire film. I say they don't appreciate beauty. Among all the Harry Potter films, I thought that this one was the most beautiful film technically. I didn't like the book, so I didn't think this film will change my mind. But I liked the film. I thought it was somewhat faithful to the source material, and by doing that there's not much the director can do. But the film is pretty.

4.THE HANGOVER

Sometimes you go to a cinema without expecting a film to be good and then go out pleasantly surprised. This was one of three films that surprised me. Watching the trailer, I thought The Hangover would be bad. But then I realized it's stupid on purpose. I thought it was really stupid what the friends went through, but it wouldn't be funny if they didn't go through that. Like I said, this was stupid on purpose. Oh and yeah, Heather Graham is there too. She's hot. I loved the breastfeeding scene if just for her boobs..

3.THE ORPHAN

You'll know you like the film if at the end of it you feel for the characters. I hated Esther the whole movie. She was insane. Literally. Watching the movie, I remember Macaulay Culkin's The Good Son, only thing is, this one's got a different twist. It's one that you would not expect. The movie, while not having big named stars attached to it, is one of the better surprises for me this year. Two thumbs up.

2.UP

I'm not sure what good words haven't been said about this movie. I loved it. It's funny, poignant, touching, all the ingredients of an awesome Pixar movie. I loved Doug, Kevin was hilarious, Carl is grumpy and brought all the drama, and Russell, he just looks like Kuya Kuri's son. I think this is one of the best movie that came out of Pixar, and I think that I've said all that there is to be said when I last posted about this movie. Easily one of my favorites this year.

1.STAR TREK

I don't know how much hype this film had prior to it's showing. All I know was JJ Abrams (creator of Lost) does good stuff. Honestly, I did not have any expectations on this movie as I'm not really and never was a trekkie. I found all previous (or the last 5 films of the series) to be very uninteresting. But this movie blew all my expectations away. It's exciting, action-packed, it is faithful to the history of the franchise and just made Star Trek cool and not geeky. This is supposedly the first part of a trilogy, so now I'm eagerly awaiting for the next ones to come.

OMEGA

I think I lied the last time when I said that the post was not about me not being with someone. Well, that's partially true. I'm not in a hurry. I'm not desperate. I'm not lonely nor in heat (well for now). I guess I just haven't met anyone lately that makes me go jittery. There's Monday of course, but I don't think I'll ever muster up enough courage to introduce myself. That's a lost cause.

So with what recently happened with me and the singer, I thought I needed to be good. I need to be a man who people will think would be the guy who could be their better half. A better man.

But then I realized that I am a good guy. To the point that I'm actually treated like a doormat. People borrow money from me, then forget about me when they don't want to pay. Friends approach me when they have a problem, and sets me aside once everything is alright.

I should actually learn how to be bad.

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Honestly, I am thinking of writing another blog. I've actually already opened a new one. One where I could say everything that I wanted to say. This blog has been open to my family. To my friends. And I wanted to have a place where I can write everything. Everything.

I have written alot of stories here, yet there are alot that's still unsaid. And there are more to be told. But due to this being open to the public, I have to be reserved. I have to be composed. Not to tell you everything, afraid that it might make you change the way you see me.

So I thought four years of writing as Gillboard has been long enough. I should write as Gilbert now.

Believe me, when I started writing this post I had no intention of ending this blog. But I think this is the right thing to do for me.

Don't worry, I'm not really closing this blog. I've met a lot of great people through this medium and I'm not going to just leave this way. I will still be visiting. Maybe as Gillboard, maybe as Gilbert. Who knows, but I'll still be around.

That's for sure.

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I guess what's left to say here is my thanks. To all the people who stumbled upon this little blog, followed my little misadventures and eventually became my friend.

Salamat sa lahat ng nag-iwan ng kanilang mga kumento at opinyon sa mga naisulat ko. As much as you got to know me, mas nakilala ko rin kayong lahat sa sinusulat ninyo. Thank you.

Salamat sa mga naglink sa blog ko, kahit hindi ko naibalik yung favor. Salamat dahil kahit papaano, naaliw, nakarelate at binigyan ninyo ng oras itong tahanan ko, kahit na pwede kayong bumisita sa mga blog o site na mas may katuturan. Thank you.

Thank you sa lahat ng nagfollow sa blog ko. For showing your interest sa lahat ng sinulat ko. Pasensya kung minsan hindi ako nakakabisita sa tahanan ninyo. Di pa naman ako tuluyang mawawala. Lilipat lang ako ng tahanan.

I'm sorry kung di ko muna sasabihin dito kung saan ako lilipat. But I'll still keep in touch. Tinetreasure ko lahat ng nakilala ko dito para lang talikuran ko.

DI AKO MABAIT

Napapaisip ako nitong mga nakaraang mga araw kung mabait nga ba talaga ako?

Kung naaalala niyo yung huli kong post (basahin niyo na lang sa ibaba). Ginawan ko kahapon ng paraan na makamot yung kati sa katawan ko. Sinubukan kong lambingin kahapon buong araw si Singer para kami'y magkita ulit.

Mahaba-habang bolahan at text textan bago ko siya napa-oo na makipagkita sa akin ngayon.

Ngayong hapong ito dapat talaga kami magkikita. Manunuod ng The Proposal sana tapos diretso kung saan. Pero sa huling minuto, nagtext ako. Ayoko nang ituloy ang pagkikita. Sinabi ko na lang dahilan ay ang bagyo kahit na dalawang jeep lang ang pagitan ng mga tahanan namin.

Wala lang, nananarantado nanaman ako. Yung init na nararamdaman ko kahapon at noong isang araw nawala lahat, at kasabay nun ang interes ko sa kanya.

"Ayos ka rin no, after mo akong bolahin kahapon, you'll bail out naman ngayon." text sakin ni Singer.
"I'm sorry. Ayoko talagang lumalabas ng bahay kapag naulan."
"Gil, alam natin pareho na bullshit yung excuse mo. I think it's better if you remove my number sa phone mo." huli niyang text sakin.

Napapaisip nanaman tuloy ako kung mabait ba talaga ako. Alam kong na gawain ng isang certified tarantado talaga yung ginawa ko ngayon. Pero alam ko rin na mali kung tinuloy ko yung pakikipagkita ko sa kanya.

Kung alam ito ng mga kaibigan kong barako, malamang nabatukan na ako. Andyan na yung palay, tutukain ko na lang, lumayo pa ako. Tapos, iyon pa ang hinahanap hanap ko. Kung tutuusin, wala talaga akong karapatan na magreklamo, kasi lahat naman ng ginagawa ko, desisyon ko lahat ito. Ang talikuran ang pagkakataon na makipagtalik. Ang hindi magpakilala sa natitipuhan kong kasabay sa sasakyan. Ang pagiging single hanggang ngayon.

Hindi talaga ako mabait. Tarantado ako. Suplado. Mas uunahin ko ang mga wisyo ng katawan ko, kesa kapakanan ng ibang tao. Wala akong ibang iniisip kundi ang sarili ko. At hangga't hindi ako nagbabago, malamang mananatiling ganito ang buhay ko.

Mag-isa at walang nakakasama.

Narealize ko, ito maaari ang dahilan kung bakit hanggang ngayon eh single pa rin ako.

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This is not a rant post about me being single. Like I've been saying, I'm not desperate. This is not a post about me wanting to be with someone. I'm writing this, in the hopes that I'll get to know myself better. And in doing so, I hope that this'll help me to become a better person.

Again, I'm not sad. I'm not lonely. Maybe I'm a little bit confused. But still I am happy. I am blessed with having a job that I like. Having friends who love me. And things that occupy my lonesome time.

INIT SA TAG-ULAN

Minsan...

Kahit gaano ka pa kakuntento sa buhay mo...

Kahit gaano mo napapaniwala na talagang masaya ka...

Kahit pa napapaligiran ka ng mga taong gusto mong nakakasama...

Kahit ramdam mo na lahat ng tao nasa iyong likuran...

Kahit nandyan silang lahat...

Wala ka pa ring malalapitan...

Para labasan ng init ng katawan.

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Mukhang wrong timing yung pagdecide ni Singer na ako'y tuluyang kalimutan... Paano na ang lima't kalahating araw na bakasyon ko?

I'm in frickin' heat!!!

DAHIL GALING AKONG ALL-BOY'S SCHOOL...

... natuto akong makisama sa lahat na klase ng tao.
... matakaw ako.
... nalaman kong pwede kang lumaban kapag alam mong ikaw ang nasa tama, at sadyang tanga lang yung titser mo.
... naging magaling akong mambola sa mga love letters.
... maaga akong natuto sa mga makamundong bagay.
... hindi ako marunong masyado na makihalubilo sa mga babae, na hindi nagmumukhang manyak o bastos.
... naging medyo maluho ako sa mga gadgets.
... natuto ako kung paano hindi mahahalata na hindi ako nagbayad sa jeep.
... naging magaling magtago sa mga taong hindi ko gusto.
... natuto akong uminom.
... narealize kong suspension ang kapalit kapag pinahiram mo yung ID mo sa ibang tao.
... nalaman ko ang mga pinaka-effective way ng paninipsip (pero syempre di ko ginagawa yun).
... medyo in-the-know ako sa mga gay lingo noong panahon na nag-aaral ko.
... napatunayan kong wala talaga akong pag-asang maging sports superstar.
... marunong akong gumawa ng pinakacreative na excuse para lumiban sa paaralan / trabaho.
... nakapag road trip ako.
... natuto akong kapalan ang mukha pagdating sa mga bagay na gusto/kailangan ko.

Buong buhay ko, all boys school ang pinag-aralan ko. Sa totoo lang, dapat alam ko kung paano manligaw, o kahit magpakilala man lang sa aking mga natitipuhan.

Pero bakit pagdating kay Monday, tumutupi kaagad ako?

A SAD DAY FOR FILIPINOS

Let's all pray for the repose of the soul of our Former President Corazon Aquino who died at 3:18 this morning.

A PRAYER FOR A HAPPY DEATH
Corazon Aquino

Almighty God, most merciful Father
You alone know the time
You alone know the hour
You alone know the moment
When I shall breathe my last.

So, remind me each day,
most loving Father
To be the best that I can be.
To be humble, to be kind,
To be patient, to be true.
To embrace what is good,
To reject what is evil,
To adore only You.

When the final moment does come
Let not my loved ones grieve for long.
Let them comfort each other
And let them know
how much happiness
They brought into my life.
Let them pray for me,
As I will continue to pray for them,
Hoping that they will always pray
for each other.

Let them know that they made possible
Whatever good I offered to our world.
And let them realize that our separation
Is just for a short while
As we prepare for our reunion in eternity.

Our Father in heaven,
You alone are my hope.
You alone are my salvation.
Thank you for your unconditional love, Amen.

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I was fortunate enough to have grown up during the time of Corazon Aquino's regime. I don't recall it being a very quiet time for the country, but I do remember it being more peaceful than the regime before it.

I don't personally know Tita Cory, the only time I had an inkling of her presence was back in first grade when during our Field Trip in Malacañang, our teachers told us to keep quiet because the President was sleeping in her room.

But I've always admired her. She was a very strong woman. Even in the face of death, she was unafraid. She faced the harshest of enemies, from a tyrannical dictator to unending coup attempts, even a couple of national calamities during her term and finally cancer. She braved them all with a straight face. Her only weapon, her faith.

I was browsing through the article written about her when she became Time's Woman of the Year, and I can't help but be astonished by what Cory, and her faith has achieved. A plain housewife who became a nation's commander-in-chief. As noted, I agree "Ninoy's destiny is to be assassinated, and hers is the presidency."

She is a great loss to the country. And today is a sad day for Filipinos indeed.