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Aug 9, 2009

OMEGA

I think I lied the last time when I said that the post was not about me not being with someone. Well, that's partially true. I'm not in a hurry. I'm not desperate. I'm not lonely nor in heat (well for now). I guess I just haven't met anyone lately that makes me go jittery. There's Monday of course, but I don't think I'll ever muster up enough courage to introduce myself. That's a lost cause.

So with what recently happened with me and the singer, I thought I needed to be good. I need to be a man who people will think would be the guy who could be their better half. A better man.

But then I realized that I am a good guy. To the point that I'm actually treated like a doormat. People borrow money from me, then forget about me when they don't want to pay. Friends approach me when they have a problem, and sets me aside once everything is alright.

I should actually learn how to be bad.

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Honestly, I am thinking of writing another blog. I've actually already opened a new one. One where I could say everything that I wanted to say. This blog has been open to my family. To my friends. And I wanted to have a place where I can write everything. Everything.

I have written alot of stories here, yet there are alot that's still unsaid. And there are more to be told. But due to this being open to the public, I have to be reserved. I have to be composed. Not to tell you everything, afraid that it might make you change the way you see me.

So I thought four years of writing as Gillboard has been long enough. I should write as Gilbert now.

Believe me, when I started writing this post I had no intention of ending this blog. But I think this is the right thing to do for me.

Don't worry, I'm not really closing this blog. I've met a lot of great people through this medium and I'm not going to just leave this way. I will still be visiting. Maybe as Gillboard, maybe as Gilbert. Who knows, but I'll still be around.

That's for sure.

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I guess what's left to say here is my thanks. To all the people who stumbled upon this little blog, followed my little misadventures and eventually became my friend.

Salamat sa lahat ng nag-iwan ng kanilang mga kumento at opinyon sa mga naisulat ko. As much as you got to know me, mas nakilala ko rin kayong lahat sa sinusulat ninyo. Thank you.

Salamat sa mga naglink sa blog ko, kahit hindi ko naibalik yung favor. Salamat dahil kahit papaano, naaliw, nakarelate at binigyan ninyo ng oras itong tahanan ko, kahit na pwede kayong bumisita sa mga blog o site na mas may katuturan. Thank you.

Thank you sa lahat ng nagfollow sa blog ko. For showing your interest sa lahat ng sinulat ko. Pasensya kung minsan hindi ako nakakabisita sa tahanan ninyo. Di pa naman ako tuluyang mawawala. Lilipat lang ako ng tahanan.

I'm sorry kung di ko muna sasabihin dito kung saan ako lilipat. But I'll still keep in touch. Tinetreasure ko lahat ng nakilala ko dito para lang talikuran ko.

53 comments:

an_indecent_mind said...

kakatouch naman brod...

saying goodbye is never a happy thought, may be it be for bad or for good..

bago bago pa lang ako sa mundo mo pero totoong naaliw mo ako sa mga likha mo.. minsan malalim, minsan mababaw.. minsan di ko talaga mainitindihan, pero naaliw pa rin ako! wehe!

may punto ka naman sa dahilan mo brod... minsan nararamdaman ko din ang ganyan...

hopefully, one of this days e magkrus ulit ang landas natin dito sa blogosperyo at marecognize ko ang istilo ng panulat ni GILLBOARD at masabi kong ikaw yun... hehe!!

goodluck brod! happy trip!

A-Z-E-L said...

if you're moving somewhere, will you make it private?

we will surely miss the cheesy Gillboard (lolz!) and your top 10 movie posts...

i know you'll not be gone for long. i know you'll be back soon...

all the best Gil...

Mokong™ said...

Wahhh! :( nawawalan na ako ng isang komentarista... bkit tol bigla biglaan yata? lilipat ka na? bloogger to wordpress? o pahinga lang? isang nakaklungkot na balita yan tol...
pero kung san ka masaya cge supurtahan taka...

gillboard said...

moks: don't worry, bibisita pa rin ako sa blog mo... magcomment pa rin ako... di na nga lang ako magpopost dito..

azel: thanks... it's not going to be private... may access pa rin public.. more anonymous lang siguro.. hehe

indecent mind: salamtat po... gaya ng sabi ko, di naman talaga ako mawawala, lipat bahay lang ako.. pero lahat ng regular na binibisita ko.. bibisitahin ko pa rin... kaibigan ko kayong lahat... more than sa blog...

Knox Galen said...

Aabangan ko ang iyong pagbabalik. Alam kong nariyan ka lang sa paligid, nakikibalita sa aming mga paglalakbay.

Godspeed Gilbert!

♥superjaid♥ said...

awww..nakakalungkot naman, pero kung san ka magiging masaya, suportaan ta ka,Ü we surely gonna miss you kuya, hihintayin ka namin..*super hugz* Godbless you po..

DRAKE said...

Parang lately maraming nagiging EMO ah! Sabi ko na nga ba we have the same personality. Pero bro ang sa akin lang hindi mo kailangan maging masama para hindi ka maabuso ng tao. Matuto ka lang maglagay ng guhit o limitasyon sa gitna mo at ng ibang tao.

Dont be a people pleaser bro, kasi ikaw lang ang talo sa huli. Hindi ka mabait bro, ayaw mo lang may masabing masama sa iyo ang ibang tao. hehehe!! Medyo marami ka pa kasing insecurities sa buhay.

Try to reflect and you will find answers within yourself.

Bakit ko nasasabi ito, napagdaanan ko na rin yan. At maniwala ka alam ko yan! Wag mo sanang masamain ang sinabi ko. Naiintindihan lang kita bro

Ingat

gillboard said...

drake: thanks drake... di naman ako emo.. i'm actually positive lately... nasabi ko lang... hehe.. pero tatandaan ko yang sinabi mo... salamat!!!

jaid: salamat!!! I won't miss you cuz i'll still be visiting your sites... hehehe

joms: i'm not gone... i've actually already posted something on my new blog... hanapin niyo na lang.. hehehe

The Scud said...

today is a sad day for bloggers. nawala na si gillboard. pero creating a new 'anonymous' blog is good. you can write anything you want. no fear.

bisita ka minsan sa blog ko. hehe.

dylan dimaubusan said...

Okay lang naman, nanjan ka langnaman. Kung magsalita toh parang sobrang mamimiss ka namin.. Sus! Pero malamang mamimiss ko kakulitan mo, na kahit sabihin mong you're not ranting about being single, eh ganun pa rin ang labas nun... Kahit anu pang paliwanag. Ganun pa rin ang dating, okish! Just telling the truth you know. ;D

Paramdam ka lang. Nanjan ka lang naman umaaligid di ba.. Ingatz!

Badong said...

woah! nagulat ako dito a! pero kahit anupamang desisyon mo, dito lang kami (family??)! hehe. sabi nga sa kanta, every new beginning comes from some other beginnings ends. wala lang, naisip ko lang bigla. i know this is not the end.

HOMER said...

It's okay. Actually I started a few weeks ago din, na-miss ko din yung dating setup ng blog ko na nakaprivate kaya ayun I started a private blog again. Pero I didn't close naman yung isa ko, pag alam kong sobrang personal sakin yung post dun sa isa ko nilalagay. Sana ganun nalang gawin mo. :)

Alam mo, sort of parehas tayo ng situation. It's really hard for me to say NO kasi. Medyo people-pleaser kasi ako. Basta ba kaya kong gawin yung favor why not, kahit alam kong minsan nasasacrifice yung ibang dapat inununa ko.

I hope I could be a better man too! :)

PUSANG-gala said...

hehe---good thing Im not a good guy---or else people would habve also treated me like a doormat.lol
katuwa naman---pero seriously mate, you should really learn how to be bad sometimes.....what's the point of being good if it is for your own expense ayt?

Skron said...

You don't have to be bad, dude. You just need to say no in a nice way.

But, seriously, do you really need to shut this blog down? Why not just change it back to its former theme. You know, change the layout, stop writing more personal stuff, and just post things about pop culture like you used to.

Anyways, good luck in your endeavors, man. Thanks, too, for always visiting my blog. You're one in a few who understands it.

the donG said...

no need to be a bad person just because no one gets to repay you the good things that you do.

let it be unconditional. just keep up the good work.

xtian1978ii said...

sad nmn. dami pa nmn ako napupulo d2 sa blog mo. pano na yan. visi ka pa din sa blog ko ha. follow ulit.

gillboard said...

xtian: sure... bloghopping pa rin naman ang isa sa mga gawaing di ko tatalikuran...

dong: no... i don't actually expect something in return when I do good things... I'm just saying I'm turning into a doormat..

skron: i actually plan on continuing what I'm writing on my new blog... so if you find it... there'll be some pop culture stuff there... and I don't plan on closing this down.. this is how i'll be able to connect with y'all...

gillboard said...

pusang-gala: i agree. kaya nga.. maglalabas ako ng kaunting sungay.. hehehe

homer: pwede rin naman... pero naisip ko kasi na it'll be better for me to just create a new one... ika nga... clean slate.

badong: i know... kaya di ako mawawala.. siguro in time.. baka ilink ko dito blog ko... para makabisita kayo.. in time...

gillboard said...

dylan: di naman ako mawawala... naglipat lang ako... yup...

scud: gaya ng sabi ko, di naman ako titigil sa pagbisita sa mga regular kong binibisita... difference lang ngayon eh di nako magsusulat dito..

wanderingcommuter said...

i have this theory sa mga bloggers na nagpapaalam magsara, nakipag break sa syota!

tama ba?

pero kasabay ng theory na yun, madalas bumabalik sila and better!

gillboard said...

ewwik: how i wish... si joms lang yun... joke!!! lumipat lang ako!!!

The Lady in Green Ruffles said...

ganun

prinsesamusang said...

hmm... four years? four years of staying together na hindi mo naman syota siguro nga gugustuhin mo din lumipat LOL paramdam ka agad pag nakalipat na ha pramis?

Chyng said...

Seriously? Well, it's my pleasure na pareho tayo ng layout. Kung iba nakapareho ko, malamang pinalitan ko na agad. ;D

Jepoy said...

Hindi ito maari! Ka-kalink ko lang sayo! Kelangan mag sulat ka pa! Now na!

Jowk lang po...

Kung saan ka masaya Kuya Gilbert dun narin kame, I wish you all the best! (Parang message sa mga debut lang) Sana ay mahanap mo ang satisfaction sa pag susulat ng private.

MarcoPaolo said...

lilipat ka? hmm... sige abangan namin yan kung saan... akala ko mawawala ka. e wala na akong mababasang kwento nyan!

tinitreasure ka rin namin parekoy! ingats :)

gillboard said...

marco: wala muna kwento ngayon... pero malay mo magsawa ako magsulat kasi ala naman nagbabasa... hehehe

jepoy: thanks jepoy... sensya naman... pagnahanap mo yung isa kong blog.. ilink mo na lang yun.. araw-araw ako nagsusulat dun ngayon.. hehehe

chyng: it's my pleasure din.. kahit di tayo talagang nakapagkita kahit magkabuilding tayo noon.. pero yaan mo, paghanda na yung isang blog kong magpublic, isa ka sa una kong sasabihan...

gillboard said...

princess: nakalipat nako... pero di pa handa magparamdam...

ruffles: ganun.

ACRYLIQUE said...

Ito ang idelohiya ko sa pagsusulat ko. Sinubukan kong gumawa ng mga kwento na hango sa mga nagyayari sa akin. Iniiwasan kong magbigay ng pribadong impormasyon pero di ko mapigilan. Tama, pwede ngang gumawa ng panibagong blog for private thoughts. :)

Klet Makulet said...

yun lang ang hirap pag nakikilala ka na ng mga mambabasa mo at nalalaman na ang blog mo ng mga taong nakakakilala sayo, medyo pigil sa pagkukuwento.

pakiramdam ko ang malas ko kasi ilang blog na sinisilip-silip ko (through your blog of course) eh mga nangagpaalam na at di ko na alam kung sila ba ay nag-update na ulit (kasi nga di ko naman maalala yung pangalan nila wahehhehe) Sana yung para kay Gilbert yung sikret mo lang tapos si Gillboard pa din yung ibang ikaw. (haba ng comment ko nyaks!!!)

Raft3r said...

is it time for a change?

ako medyo nalungkot sa nabasa ko
recent reader lang ako dito, eh
tapos saka matatapos na ang lahat

yes, drama
hehe

pero for what it's worth
it was a pleasure meeting gillboard

see ya around!

xtian1978ii said...

aasahan ko yan ha.

MkSurf8 said...

good luck sa lipat bahay mo. =) salamat din sa pagbisita mo sa bahay ko kahit lagi walang tao dun.

gillboard said...

mksurf8: salamat... ok lang... kung makabuluhan naman nababasa kahit paminsan lang, ayus na sakin yun..

xtian: sure sure...

raft3r: I'll still see you around.. regular visitor mo pa rin ako...

gillboard said...

klet: pag-iisipan ko yan... sabi ko nga, pag nagsawa ako na walang nagbabasa ng sinusulat ko, magpost ako ulit dito.. hehehe

acrylique: for private and public yung bago kong blog... pero for now, private muna...

Boris said...

that's a good idea. sige ibuhos mo na muna yung time mo dyan sa bagong blog mo.

akala ko di ka na magbblog. hope to hear from you Gilbert :)

Mon said...

Naalala ko tuloy yung song:

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's friday i'm in love

Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...

iriz said...

ganun?
e okay din naman un pero ciempre nasubaybayan ka na namin dito tapos iiwan mo kami? badtrip ka naman oh. lol.

pero cge humayo ka lang ay magpakarami.masaya yan.kamusta mo na lang kami sa bagong blog mo. :)

The Phil Guild Guide said...

if people borrow from you and don't pay then borrow again and you let them borrow that 2nd that, then that's the only time na doormat ka hehe. the first time incident was only the realization on your part who to trust or not. it's good that way na people reveal themselves to you.

The Lady in Green Ruffles said...

ayy

The Gasoline Dude said...

Ngayon ko lang nabasa 'to! Anong nangyayari???

Pero nakaka-relate ako. I'm planning to make a new blog as well. Masyado nang madaming nakakaalam ng blog ko eh. = P

Mac Callister said...

waaaaaa ang daya dapat sabihin mo san ka lilipat!hehehe

gilbert said...

mac: in time... meron na nga iba dito na nakakahanap ng blog ko... hehehe..

alex: wala naman... kelangan ko lang na makahinga... pero ayos naman lahat..

PGG: thanks for the comment and for visiting the site.

gilbert said...

iris: gusto ko kasi, iba naman sumubaybay... lolz.. joke.. pero seriously, in time i'll let you know san ako natambay...

mon: Friday, I'm In Love!!! Gusto ko yan!!!

boris: i still visit your sites naman... medyo di lang makacomment minsan kasi medyo busy.. hehe

wanderingcommuter said...

uyyy farewell blogger ka din? awww...

Dhianz said...

do wat u gotta do kuyah.. ayos lang yan... at least 'ur not really sayin' goodbye naman... and we know dat 'ur still around... kung nde man kitah makitah ditoh sa bahay moh... i'll probably say hi to yah sa plurkville... but i really love diz page of 'urs... honestly dme koh reng natutunan d2...like some topic about sa inyong mga guyz... itz kinda interesting at kakatuwang basahin... and eniweiz we always love reading here... but true there's always two side of us... and we can't reveal everythin' here... datz why i still have a journal of my own as in 'ung de-sulat kamay...eniweiz we'll miss yah.. thanks den sa lahat.. *hugz* kuyah.. Godbless! -di

Raft3r said...

gilbert, kahit sa akin mo na lang ipaalam yun secret blog mo
sige na
hehe

gilbert said...

raft3r: hehe... saka na pag marami na akong naisulat... baka nga bumalik din ako dito ulit...

dhianz: salamat... don't worry, nabisita pa rin naman ako sa inyo...

ewwik: di naman... lipat bahay lang... blogger pa rin naman...

jayvie said...

oi sabihan mo ako pag nilaunch mo na yung bago ah! Ü

kuri said...

pucha, huli ako sa balita!

kung san ka man lilipat, nawa'y lubusan kang maging masaya. salamat sa palaging pagbisita at pagsubaybay parekoy.

goodluck sa iyong mga plano. keep in touch ha. o kaya chat nalang tau. heheh.

hangang sa muli kaibigan!

Random Student said...

doormat? useful pa rin. buti na lang nalalabhan ang doormat to look and feel new all over again. eventually naman you mature to be more assertive.

JoShMaRie said...

nakakainis naman. hehe. ngayon na lang ako napadalw tapos nagggogoodbye ka pala? nyar!

gillboard said...

joshmarie: sorry naman, bumalik na ako dahil sayo. hehehe

random student: i'm trying. thanks for the visit.

kuri: ang drama, pero salamat, ayan bumalik nako... sana di ikaw huling makaalam!!!

jayvie: nalaunch na... pero secret muna.. hehehe