I think I lied the last time when I said that the post was not about me not being with someone. Well, that's partially true. I'm not in a hurry. I'm not desperate. I'm not lonely nor in heat (well for now). I guess I just haven't met anyone lately that makes me go jittery. There's Monday of course, but I don't think I'll ever muster up enough courage to introduce myself. That's a lost cause.
So with what recently happened with me and the singer, I thought I needed to be good. I need to be a man who people will think would be the guy who could be their better half. A better man.
But then I realized that I am a good guy. To the point that I'm actually treated like a doormat. People borrow money from me, then forget about me when they don't want to pay. Friends approach me when they have a problem, and sets me aside once everything is alright.
I should actually learn how to be bad.
Honestly, I am thinking of writing another blog. I've actually already opened a new one. One where I could say everything that I wanted to say. This blog has been open to my family. To my friends. And I wanted to have a place where I can write everything. Everything.
I have written alot of stories here, yet there are alot that's still unsaid. And there are more to be told. But due to this being open to the public, I have to be reserved. I have to be composed. Not to tell you everything, afraid that it might make you change the way you see me.
So I thought four years of writing as Gillboard has been long enough. I should write as Gilbert now.
Believe me, when I started writing this post I had no intention of ending this blog. But I think this is the right thing to do for me.
Don't worry, I'm not really closing this blog. I've met a lot of great people through this medium and I'm not going to just leave this way. I will still be visiting. Maybe as Gillboard, maybe as Gilbert. Who knows, but I'll still be around.
That's for sure.
I guess what's left to say here is my thanks. To all the people who stumbled upon this little blog, followed my little misadventures and eventually became my friend.
Salamat sa lahat ng nag-iwan ng kanilang mga kumento at opinyon sa mga naisulat ko. As much as you got to know me, mas nakilala ko rin kayong lahat sa sinusulat ninyo. Thank you.
Salamat sa mga naglink sa blog ko, kahit hindi ko naibalik yung favor. Salamat dahil kahit papaano, naaliw, nakarelate at binigyan ninyo ng oras itong tahanan ko, kahit na pwede kayong bumisita sa mga blog o site na mas may katuturan. Thank you.
Thank you sa lahat ng nagfollow sa blog ko. For showing your interest sa lahat ng sinulat ko. Pasensya kung minsan hindi ako nakakabisita sa tahanan ninyo. Di pa naman ako tuluyang mawawala. Lilipat lang ako ng tahanan.
I'm sorry kung di ko muna sasabihin dito kung saan ako lilipat. But I'll still keep in touch. Tinetreasure ko lahat ng nakilala ko dito para lang talikuran ko.